I is for icky and irritable

That’s how I feel today. Don’t know why. Not ill, but certainly blah. Sad, ready to cry. Perhaps depressed, not necessarily. I’ve certainly been depressed in the past, but I just don’t know. Out of sorts.

No reason. Perhaps the season

Time to wait and see. Hang in there.

It will change, it always does.

A poem fragment by Rainer Maria Rilke I had in my office comes to mind:

Let everything happen to you

Beauty and terror.

Just keep going.

No feeling is final.

And so I will.

6 thoughts on “I is for icky and irritable

  1. Hi Steph, I have been enjoying all of your blogs, and have been thinking a lot about you. Lots of changes have been going on in your life and they can definitely pile up, as you know. I do find that I am more irritable and depressed with the wind. It seems to always bring up lots of anxiety. Things will settle and you will adjust in your way to all the changes. I am happy that you are writing through all of this stuff. It is inspiring me to perhaps begin writing. Hang in there, and text me if you would like to go walk when the weather gets better…


  2. I think it’s everything you’ve gone through in the past year. That’s enough to create a feeling like this. It just takes time to make the adjustment. I think retirement involves a loss that we kind of don’t think about when we do it, but it’s there. I felt a lot more disoriented than I thought I would. So, I don’t know but maybe cut yourself some slack. ❤


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